Prayer of Thanks

Dear God,

When I beseeched you in my car that rainy night while rounding the Point of the Mountain, I had hit a wall. The kind of wall I’ve scaled a hundred times before, but after these ten years of special-needs parenting, I couldn’t climb it.

I knew you were listening. So I decided to stop with the delicate, white bread sort of praying and get serious.

Because I know you are there and I know that you love me, I raised my voice at you and told you that we are at a point of emptiness with the challenges of our children.

The relentless demands of the last decade have taught us many things. They have also brought us to this worn out place.

And so I prayed and said it is time for you to step in, which as you know, I have never before demanded.

The remarkable thing is that you did step in.

Shortly after my loud, earnest supplication, things started changing. You set them in motion.

We found the right medication at the right dose and our son’s behavior improved dramatically.

The state called, saying our son is coming off the wait list for disability support and will receive services for the rest of his life. You know that we’ve been on that list for six years with no real hope of ever coming off it. And yet, as with the loaves and fishes, you somehow made it enough to include us.

Our parents offered to come to our home and watch our boys so we can take a vacation.

I started going to yoga, and felt you there.

Spring came.

For these miracles, Father, which I need more than I deserve,

Thank You.

  5 comments for “Prayer of Thanks

  1. Ruth
    April 4, 2014 at 10:10 pm

    Beautiful. Life is good. Thank you for sharing.

  2. Jen
    April 7, 2014 at 5:36 pm

    I tearfully read your posts and feel better for knowing your struggles, your thoughts and your insights. You are brave and strong. And I love you!

  3. Sarah
    April 9, 2014 at 2:42 pm

    Lovely, Megan.

    “Stop with the delicate, white bread sort of praying…”

  4. Beck
    April 9, 2014 at 4:06 pm

    I’m with Sarah…I love that sentence.

    Also, I’m so glad you’re getting a reprieve with state funding and a honest vacation. The Lord has a way of stepping in right when the weight begins to crush us. “My yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

  5. April 11, 2014 at 1:11 pm

    This post is beautiful! I agree with the above comments! To them and you I say AMEN!

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