Month: July 2016

This is How I Do It

So much of what I write here is different than it used to be. I’m different than I used to be. When I started this thing in January 2012, it was mainly to explain the special-needs family to people who know us. It became therapeutic to write openly about things that were hidden, difficult, unsolvable. Writing has always held an…

Clean House

In the last couple of weeks I have straight-up purged and organized the entire house. Every closet, shelf, cupboard, room, and drawer—no clutter left behind. I have never cleaned out everything all at once, or so quickly, but this time I was a woman possessed, even obsessed, with order. It rubbed off on Dutch, to an extent. He agreed, under…

Have Jack, Will Travel

There was no day camp for Jack today because it’s a state holiday in these parts. Jeff always has to work on this particular holiday, so today has been a long day of abject hardship. By 8:30 am, we were on Ride Number One of the morning. When Jack is bored and antsy and living in the relatively unstructured environment…

Things My Mother Told Me About The Day I Was Born

My mom recently gave me a rundown of various facts about my actual day of birth, which I will now indulgently list, (you’re welcome): A) It was, predictably, a hot July 15th when I entered the world. B) My mom had me at a university teaching hospital. C) The monitors revealed I was in distress because… D) no one back then…

Birthday present

Enough has happened in my life in the last week to warrant five enormous separate posts, but alas, there has been no time for writing. I’ve been composing in my head, which means I forget what I meant to say while I was driving, or showering, or trying to coax a four-year-old to eat. This blog isn’t a travelogue, though,…

Hives, Continued…

My hives started to heal over the weekend, but yesterday they were back and they were furious. My eyes were surrounded by hives, puffy, red, practically swollen shut. My chin was covered in hives and my lower lip was swollen twice its usual size. Charlie said my face looked scary and he didn’t like looking at me. Honesty + autism…

Hives

I woke up yesterday with hives. According to the dermatologist’s office, it’s a reaction to…something. We don’t know what. Something environmental. The nurse told me she once had hives for a week with absolutely no understandable cause, so good job keeping things mysterious, hives. They are profuse on my back and belly, legs, arms, scalp, ears, everywhere. They are everywhere.…

Tiny Letters, Midsummer

Dear Holiday Weekend, You were great. Until Jack got strep. Then you were like a burning plane in a death spiral.   Dear three cans of crisp, cold Fresca I consumed on the 4th, You the real MVP.   Dear Jack, We do not cram family photos down the disposal and shred them. Nor do we attack family members.  …