Month: October 2017

Life

I’ve been thinking about the brevity of life, and also the endlessness of it, and about how which perspective one has is mostly based on how things in one’s life are playing out. I don’t know much, but I do know this: when life is grand, it clips along briskly, like a boat with full sails. When life is raw…

What’s My Brain Doing Today?

I’ve been vacillating between never caring to write anything ever again, and having vague writing ideas that struggle to surface from the ether of my subconscious. Back when my mind was a tightly wound coil holding onto survival, I was counter-intuitively more observant, more aware. And I seemed to stay alive BY writing. Now my brain seems slack, unable to…

Moving On…

The breast care center called this morning. My biopsy was negative. Huzzah and a huge sigh of relief. Honestly, over the last two weeks, I have examined my own mortality and plumbed the depths of my soul. I feel that this whole thing may have been a heavenly-imposed exercise in acceptance and trust. I was prepared to receive different results.…

That Sucked

October 7, 2017 I had a breast biopsy this week. I’m going to be frank about this nightmare-before-Halloween experience. Feel free to check out now if you’d just rather not. I get it. I tried hard to be funny while writing it, guys. But it didn’t really work, because TRAUMA. The biopsy took place on a state-of-the-art, brand-new piece of…

Faith and Trust are Symbiotic

October 2, 2017 Last night, I picked up the boys from behavior therapy and we met Jeff and Henry for dinner. When we got home, I tidied the kitchen. We put on our pj’s and brushed our teeth. I read the boys picture books on my bed. I read aloud from 1 Nephi to my family. Charlie said our prayer.…